I FAILED......(FOR THE CHILDREN WHO WANNA GROW UP FAST)

Journey of my life commenced with a cry,
i was a my mum and dads deformed try..

 I was a little baby girl who gave a little smile..
i never had  special or any peculiar style..
i was proud but sometimes sad to be a girl..
i always assumed that i am never a precios pearl..

I always was busy with books or thinking something crap..
Never did any thing naughty never  got a slap..
children played in the park , streets and loitered around..
i used to lie in terrace and stared at clouds..

My bro was a gamer and the mine of mischeif..
i sat and saw him doing ,dats the memory i keep..
i completed my homeworks daily coz i was scared..
but never understood dat feeling of punishment was also rare..

I  saw  my brother begging things frm mum and tried his best
i felt like doing it but had uneccesary self respect..
HE got things with lots of tumult and fyt..
i was left with fucking self ego loosing all rights..

NOW when i have a desire to demand something
i want to give my father a desiring ping..
i think hundred times before asking him..
coz i built that distance and now it stings,,

 I see children doing all naughty stuff..
i want to join them but now its tough..
i made my childhood hell..
i wud go back if had some magic spell..

i never elucidated my childhood to anyone..
coz it never had silly memories and neither fun..
but it was a boat of life which has already sailed..
THIS IS THE AGE OF MY LIFE WHERE I FAILED..

I am genuinely fed up of being SAD
oh!GOD plzz turn me to a LAD 
i also want to break hearts and do BAD.


I L also enjoy TEQUILA and  RUM,
mess everything around and  have FUN..
I l chase d galz and roam on BIKES,
make my own gang and fight with GUYS..


I really wanna once know how good it FEELS,
on ignoring her calls and all message BEEPS..
I  l tell her -never  love me. I AM BAD..
will neva think b4 saying dat shes happy or SAD.


I will ignore all "I LOVE U" she'll say to me,
i'll soar like a FREE BIRD over the SEA..
I l avoid her eyes when she looks lovingly at me..


I really wanna undergo the strength boys have in them,
to keep her waiting d entire nyt and enjoy with friends..
I'LL also mock at her whenever she cries,
never understand her pain as much as she tries..
  
But now i feel ,life is REAL...
i shouldn't wish for the things i can never have,
I'LL mock at you, whenever you come back..
hide my feelings in the core of my heart..


I'LL DATE WID GUYS AND TELL DEM THEY ARE FOOL..
let the people cry .i'll be cool..
COZ WHEN I CRIED I WAS'NT A FOOL!!