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First crush is true |
It’s for everyone who had a intense teenage crush on someone and
for the one who lied that they never
were immature enough to fall for a petty thing called “First crush”
The heat inside the blanket during summers is
killing but we find it the soothing like the warmth of a bonfire during winters
if we are on phone with our “first crush”. Talking all stuff and breathing
heavily out of love which overflows our heart. We are unable to hear our mother’s
voice when she is calling our name at the top of her voice but while talking to
our “darling” even a slight murmur is crystal clear. Waiting for hours outside
her coaching classes just to say hi .You sing you dance and you do everything
you have never imagined of doing. You start believing that it’s the joy of true
love. We are ready to prove it to the whole world if someone even tries to
question the intensity of our feeling.
Sometimes it’s mutual but the one sided crush is more fun and
risky. We keep imagining and loving the person in our mind. We always make our
mind to say hello but the moment we see our “angel” coming we hide and just admire
his/her beauty. For just one glance we wait for hours in balcony holding the
book pretending to study. The pain starts excruciating in our heart when we see
our “sweetie pie” smiling and talking over phone. We are full of doubts that if
“our first love” is already committed. We start feeling as if all hopes to live
are pulling apart and we are just standing and welcoming death with open hands.
But, the moment our “true love” looks at us all of our doubts suddenly vanish
away like a ghost. We gather that amount of details of our Darling that we can
write an encyclopedia of her behavior and choices. We feel like crying if we
are not made her/his partner in dance.
We cant sleep at nights just waiting for morning to see our
sweet first love in school. Sometimes this first crush crosses all social boundaries.
Yes, I am talking about having crush on our cute elder cousin or any hot
subject teacher. We have goose bumps when our cute elder cousin calls us and
kisses our cheek out of healthy love or our hot subject teacher holds our hands
and helps us making a diagram. So, this first crush is not a small lake of
feelings it is an ocean with diverse waves of emotions and feelings. A crush is
often akin to a real relationship and her first experiences with romantic love.
Now when we think about it we laugh at our stupidity but only if we notice that
was the time our brain was immature but our heart knew to love truly. There was
no place for mixed feelings or confusion about the person.
So, we should learn from it that growing up by intellect is good but growing up by soul changes our personality completely. That is the reason we don’t feel the same for anyone with the same intensity. The feeling at that time was not the childish but it was the purity of our heart which later gets amalgamated with diverse impure elements. No feeling which was intense was stupid because it made us stronger in a long run and made us learn about the variety of human emotions.
